Since taking the plunge to go freelance instead of returning to work full time, I admit that I’ve found it a little more difficult than I anticipated landing new clients and projects. I never expected it to be easy, but neither did I expect to spend 50% of the time I’d dedicated to my freelance work, simply hunting it out. I know that these things take time and (I hope) some time in the not so distant future, I will reap the fruits of my labour. BUT…I still question if I’m missing something here.
I’m going to put it out there – I know that I’m good at what I do. Some of the projects I’ve pitched for would be an absolute doddle to me and I know that as qualifications go, I’m more than qualified. I’m dedicated and conscientious. I work hard to get results. Yet I’ve come across people throughout my career who are ‘doing better’ (I mean that in pure monetary terms) than me, even though they’re less qualified and (what was the title of my post again?) oh yes, just not as good as me (*blush, cringe, shudder…*).
So…am I missing something here? Who’s pitching for the same projects as I am?
Despite that last paragraph (!) I am actually rather modest…I’ve always preferred for people to underestimate me and then surprise them, as opposed to disappoint them if i can’t live up to their expectations. It’s the way I’ve always been – quietly confident I guess. Just so…British.
We are all just a little bit modest aren’t we? We’re afraid that being confident and bold will come across as brash and arrogant. We don’t like hyperbole and we pull each other up for exaggerating – it’s just not the done thing, being ‘full of it’ doesn’t come natural to us. We think we’re being dishonest if we say that we’re ‘the greatest’ at something – it would be a lie, of course there will be someone somewhere who’s better. We feel more comfortable downplaying our talents and aren’t very good at saying that we’re bloody brilliant at something.
But really, shouldn’t we all be a little more sure of ourselves? More brash? More Kanye? Perhaps we’re not ‘the greatest’ at what we do, but if we don’t believe that, then nobody else will.
So back to my freelancing, perhaps I’m not putting myself out there enough. Not shouting loud enough. Not ‘bigging myself up’ enough.
Here’s to being (a little) more Kanye.