I would never really have described myself as camera shy in my pre-blog life. I’m quite happy to smile for the camera and I’m not one to dart out of the frame in social occasions. I’m not self-conscious and I’m happy in my own skin.
However, I’m also not one for taking photos of myself. Selfies don’t come naturally to me – I don’t feel the need to share it with the world if I think I’m looking good on a particular day (or if the Instagram filter makes me look particularly good that day!), nor have I mastered the seductive pout or know which is my best side.
Putting photos of myself on my blog has always made me feel a little uncomfortable. It just feels a little self-indulgent. Aside from that, the hubby isn’t the best of photographers (in fact we would barely have any family photos if I left it to him!) so I suppose that I just fell into the role of photographer, and as such, I’m always the one behind the camera rather than in front of it.
But recently I’ve been thinking about where I want my blog to go and have been assessing the blogs that I follow and what I like about them. Up until now my main photography subject has been my daughter. She makes for brilliant photos (as every child does) and I will never ever tire of taking her picture, capturing her every expression and freezing those precious moments in time to forever look back on. But I’ve recently been questioning the privacy issues that come with being a blogger and I wonder if it’s fair to make her my main photography subject – if I don’t feature my own face, then who am I to decide that I should feature hers?
In truth, I’m happy with posting photos of my daughter on my blog (within reason) – at least for the time being. But I do feel that I would like to feature more prominently on here as she gets older and I regain a sense of myself beyond being a mother.
I’ve realised that most of my favourite blogs have a strong sense of identity and I feel that I know the blogger behind them. Of course there are those anonymous bloggers who have me feeling like I know them through their relatable writing and witty posts alone, but on the whole, I tend to be drawn to those highly visual lifestyle blogs that let me have a nose into their personal lives; I would recognise the blogger if they walked past me in the street and I would feel like I already knew them to chat to. Okay, I’m not sure I’d want people to recognise me in the street, but perhaps it would be nice to show my face every now and then!
Since I set up Mum in Brum I always intended it to be a family lifestyle blog – I knew that I didn’t just want to talk about parenting alone. I never had a set sense of direction for it, but I seem to have achieved the lifestyle part through my interiors posts, recipes, freelancing advice and general life observations. Going forward I would like to focus a little more on fashion and my own journey beyond being a first-time mum – my journey as a 30 something woman trying to balance family life with fulfilling my own aspirations and ambitions.
So going forward, you can expect to see a little more of my face and read a little more about me – all in moderation of course.
Who knows, I may even start a vlog next…