I’ve tried to hold on to this secret of ours and keep it away from the blog for as long as I could bear, but I feel that the time is right now to come clean and get it out there. Plus we’re pretty excited and I feel like a fraud not referencing my current state in all of my posts…
So yes, here you have it – I’m pregnant! 15 weeks now and only just starting to feel like myself again. We are of course delighted, especially following a recent miscarriage at ten weeks. I still find it hard to believe that it’s a given, but I am starting to relax a little following the 12 week scan and I also can confirm that I’ve felt very pregnant this time around…I forgot how tiring the first trimester is!
Those three weeks away from blogging over Christmas weren’t actually a choice but more to do with the fact that I couldn’t be arsed to even take myself to bed, let alone try and string (reasonably) intelligent blog posts together. I could’ve thrown the towel in all together at that time.
But as I say, starting to feel a little more human again these past few weeks as my energy levels have pick up and we’re so looking forward to becoming a family of four (five if you count the dog). Deep down I’ve always wanted to have a second child – even though I wonder every day how the hell I’m going to cope. Perhaps the next one will be more placid and less feisty…Everyone keeps telling me that the second one just ‘fits in’. I’ll be the judge of that.
This pregnancy is certainly going a lot quicker than my first one. Perhaps because I’ve done it all before and I’m not clocking off the days on a phone app, or perhaps it’s because I’m not counting down the weeks until I can leave my job and sit at home every day chillin’ with my content little newborn (what a shocker that was!)
We found out the sex with Taylor at a private scan early on (11 weeks), and I was adamant that if I had another that I wouldn’t. Not because I regretted it back then (I definitely didn’t) but just because I wanted to experience the anticipation – after all, I’m not planning on having a third. However I’m finding it difficult to get the fact that I’m actually having another baby into my head. It just doesn’t feel real and I think that, for me, knowing the sex of our future child helps me to connect more and get into the head space. Plus I have a shed load of clothes and toys of Taylor’s that I’m itching to get rid of if in fact we’re having a boy…I’m still in two minds though and would love to know your thoughts…did you find out?
Not content with one huge change in our lives, we’re also planning a house move this year. In fact we’re planning to relocate and may change cities altogether thanks to the hubby’s new work commitments. But more on that later…2017 is certainly going to be an exciting and busy year for us.