It’s hard to imagine that one day you won’t remember these days we spend together, just the two of us.
You won’t remember a time when you didn’t have a younger sibling. You won’t remember all of those times we’ve laughed together, played together. All of those times your mum has been so excited because you’ve reached a big milestone, uttered a new word or worked out something new. You won’t remember the pride in my eyes every day at how much you’ve achieved and how fast you’re growing.
Time is going by so quickly and you are growing up and changing every day before my eyes. Soon we will be a family of four and these days will seem like a lifetime ago.
Your newborn days already feel like a distant memory. Another lifetime in fact. Luckily the photos and the blog posts provide an everlasting record (or so I like to think – who knows what may happen to the internet one day?). But the raw emotions, the newborn smell, the gummy smile…I struggle to remember those. Don’t get me wrong, some of it I would rather forget.
But I feel like time is going by too fast.
I feel so content right now. The happiest I’ve ever been in my whole life. Sure I’m constantly knackered, my life is made up of monotonous routines, you drive me mad (insane) some days, but for the first time in my life I feel fulfilled. There are a couple more things I’d like to achieve on a personal level, but aside from that I wouldn’t change a thing.
And so I want to hold on to these moments, record them, cherish them, never forget them. Sometimes I feel like I want to stop time. I wish I could box up your two-year old giggle, your devilish smile, your complete innocence…Even your madam face.
Because these are things that will change one day soon. And I’ll miss them.
But I also know that tomorrow I will love you more than I do today. Every day I think I couldn’t love you any more. And guess what? I do. With every new word you say, every new accomplishment, every day you become a little bit more of what makes you you.
And I know that although I will miss these days, with just the two of us, we have so much to look forward to. And with every new stage you reach and every year that we both grow older, I will love you more.